Everything collapses around me, overwhelms and astounds me.
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Ayo, Temirtau, are you ready! #squad

Just checking through my closet and dammit I have so many jerseys/t-shirts gifted me by athletes, it’s like 60% of all my clothes :o
Everytime I volunteer, my teams give me their stuff, but my most favorite are Netherlands volleyball team’s t-shirt and Bahamas Olympic assoc. t-shirt and of course since last October I sleep only in Samoa one, hehe ♥
And everytime I wear some of them to work, our Kazakhstan athletes feel the need to ask me why I don’t wear Kazakhstan team t-shirt, lol, I don’t even own one.
MAN I MISS ALL OF MY TEAMS SO FREAKING MUCH I WANNA CRY! I wonder would I ever see them again :(
Also it was a volleyball Wolrd Grand Prix last week, unfortunately Netherlands didn’t come :( and I couldn’t volunteer there, but just went to the games and it was so overwhelming when delegates recognized me and most of the people in organizing commitee asked why we weren’t volunteering and would they see us on the next events. Shit. That is so cool when someone remembers you, it makes me think that I’m doing it right!

Oh, and water polo world cup is in 2 weeks, I’m so stoked! I’m gonna work with the USA team ^_^ also we saw team pictures and I swear each of those players are handsome as hell. It’s impossible, lol. Also there are those who are Olympic champions and stuf… like super popular or sonething, wow. There will be USA, Australia, Groatia, Serbia, South Africa teams and I don’t remember who else… just ahh!

Other thing that overwhelms me is when someone adds me on facebook or whatsapp text me that athletes who were here in Almaty told them about our (volunteers’) outstanding work and just personality. LIKE SCREW YOU THAT IS TOO SWEET. And when our guys who are usually busy competing just randomly text that they miss us and appreciate what we’ve done for them while they were here. Damn. And when other volunteers are like “we heard it’s more interesting to work with you” (we have this group of volunteers that is together for like 3-4 years and we all are already like a family) ♥ ♥
And when I hang out somewhere I always meet our local athletes we check on doping and some of them are so precious getting excited they ran into me, lol, I always thought people don’t remember me and I’m kinda invisible for them and all this cute stuff blows my mind up!

Also it’s a little bit more than a month till I’m going to Asuan Games in Korea… I still remember that January day when my boss told me that I’m going there like it was yesterday… ♥

Oh, also Citizens are performing at Almaty Weekender fest on August 9 and I’m so happy, but also I seriously plan to go to Tomorrowland 2015, because I can’t take it anymore, that is one of my biggest dreams ever and I will try to do my best to save enough money and stuff (I still didn’t make it to Frendly Gathering though *sigh*)

Ahh, I just love everything that is going on in my life! I love my job, I love people that are in my life, I started to love myself and I became more communicative and confident lately! The best thing is that I haven’t checked on my therapist since early spring and I don’t even feel the need to do it! So thankful for everything and everyone ♥ ♥ ♥

P.S. Twerking. Apparently I’m not too Asian for that shit like I thought I was. My love for diplo made me do that :D


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#fantastic #squad (в СОК АкБулак)
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Where I come from everyone’s happy, everyone’s smiling… ♥ #favorite
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✌ ✌ #fantastic #squad #fun #life #outdoors #mountains #AkBulak #Talgar #Kazakhstan  (в СОК АкБулак)
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I’m thankful for today! ♥ #view #mountains #AkBulak #Talgar #Kazakhstan #outdoors  (в СОК АкБулак)
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“I never enjoy anything. I’m always waiting for whatever’s next. I think everyone’s like life in fast-forward. Never stopping to enjoy the moment. Too busy trying to rush through everything so we can get on with what we’re really supposed to be doing with our lives. I get these flashes of clarity, brilliant clarity, where for a second I stop and I think “Wait, this is it. This is my life. I better slow down and enjoy it because one day we’re all gonna end up in the ground and that’ll be it. We’ll be gone.””

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Snowfall (by Skylar Nielsen)

“Wanna know the fucking truth? Nobody is fucking happy. Nobody has skin made from oil paint and sunlight. Nobody fucking understands this world. Fuck, nobody probably understands math as much as they claim. You’re here one day and the next you’re not. God? Religion? I’ve learned a lot more about the world by eating acid and swallowing pills. Tell me what your church has done for you? Tell me if you have holes in your mouth from speaking lies? Wanna know the fucking truth? Pity is just another word for pathetic. Drink beer and watch the sunrise from every rooftop. Take photographs naked. Take photographs kissing. Take photographs having sex. Stop making everything about sexuality. Wanna know the fucking truth? Nobody really gives a damn if you lost your virginity at fourteen or if you were the president in high school. Wanna know the fucking truth? There is no such thing as the right person. People leave. They change like ocean currents, they leave you with bruises in your calves. And you wanna know the fucking truth? You get better. You learn to love. You find God in between the cracks of a wall when you’re puking your limbs out. You wanna know the fucking truth? Go find it.”

something someone should have told me when i was eighteen 

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"Algoma, Ontario"by Brendan Cull

“I’ve always been pretty tough in that way, where if you tell me I can’t do something, I will prove you wrong.”

Willie Aames

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